Why don't I do it? Why don't I do all the writing I feel I want to do? I have half a dozen good projects on my storyboards. But I can't seem to dig in. I guess I am not compelled enough or I would. My excuses include menopause which has my sleep totally discombobulated which steals my concentration and physical energy. That's quasi-legit, but I know it's possible to get into something so deeply that I forget time and space and my physical being. I feel like I'm killing time by beating it to death. I just keep finding stuff to occupy my day and enough of my mind to shut out the will to write. It's harder to create than play freebie poker online or watch TV or fiddle with a hundred other little projects. Sometimes I think about the time I'm wasting. Other times I know I'm too tired and I feel too scatterbrained to do anything worthwhile. My writing projects are dear to me but daunting too. I mentally glance over them and get worn out just thinking about all that needs to be done. I wonder why I should bother too. I mean, it's not like I'm going to write the great american novel. But part of me... part of me really wants to finish what I think are great ideas, even if it's just for me.

I gotta keep urging myself on with quotes like this:

"A professional writer is an amateur who didn't quit." ~ Richard Bach

"Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not. Nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent." ~ Calvin Coolidge

"Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use." ~ Earl Nightingale

I should think more about that. Maybe I'll sleep on it. hehe